A Wind Instrument
Over the Summer months I enjoyed writing my Blog every day ...musing over stuff ... uploading my photos ..... but since I've had to start a College Professional Blog its just not the same. Now I have to write about the lectures I attend, the workshops I take part in and other relevant college events. Its much more restricting and I think that I will return to my personal blog instead.
I am a little worried about my motivation at college this year ... I'm wondering if last year was more to prove to myself that I could actually learn at a Higher Educational Level, and I did do that. I enjoyed every minute of my journey and thought that that enthusiasm would contine, but alas....this year the spark seems to have left me, I dont enjoy the technical side of photography, I mainly enjoy the creative, but the technical, rather than enhancing my learning, actually feels as though it is hindering me, I have such difficulty with the processes.
Maybe this is because all term I seem to have been plagued by ill health ...oh nothing serious just a generally being "out of sorts" ..an abcess and then and one cold after another. I believe in the mind and body being connected and as I am not feeling very happy then it stands to reason that physically I am no in 'tip top' condition! I'm trying to fathom out what I am going to do about all of this. Part of me says this is a wonderful opportunity and I should really make a big effort to appreciate it and do everything I can to enjoy it. The other part of me just wants to give up.
I wont give up just yet ... I have to keep trying and I am really hoping that motivation and enthusiasm return ten fold ... but if next term I am not able to 'turn myself around' then I will have to consider seriously what on earth I am going to do.
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