Life today......
This morning I had a date to meet a guy for coffee in town. It was my fifth date. It panned out like all the others. A nice guy, a pleasant hour of company and conversation, but with the same missing ingredient, that elusive 'spark.' I'm getting used to it now. I told myself today to have no expectations, no youthful dreams of a knight in shinning armour, no preconceptions of any kind. It worked in as much as I wasn't disappointed when we met that there was nothing. Its just the way life is sometimes. It was a positive meeting because I knew, and he knew, that we would not see each other again! No tears, no misunderstandings, no feelings hurt on either side. Just acceptance. So that was that.
Home then to catch up with my friends on line. My daughter wanted me to drop her at her friend's house, they are going to the movies and then bowling, so that's what I did.
After dropping her off, I went to the gym to get my 'fix' of endorphins.
Then home again. I wrote a poem on Interpals, not a good poem, I dont really have any talent for poetry writing but I wrote it anyway. The emotion of my poem was of annoyance. I deleted my smiling photos as I am growing more annoyed with messages of 'you have a lovely smile'....bullshit! Its not that I dont think I have a lovely smile, I do :D hehe!!! But it can become tiresome when there is so much more inside than what the smile tells on the outside. But no matter.....I've got it out of my system now and maybe, just maybe those messages will stop.
The evening is young but tonight I am alone so I will probably now have a nice hot shower, watch a little tv, chat to a friend on line.....that's it really....then bed! Not exciting but not life threatening either, so I thank my wise old friend in the higher realms who cares for me in my warm and safe haven and count my blessings....there are many in the world who do not have what I have.
Peace Garden on The Hoe, Plymouth
"May Peace Prevail on All the Earth"
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